Also…
I think that has to have been one of the hardest things I’ve ever done in my life. My love for him is something I can’t explain, but my abhorence for lying hurt too much… But not enough to make me fall out of love… Just loose enough respect… It’s going to be so hard… These next few months… I’m going to need a lot of help and a lot of distractions… And a lot of patience…
I don’t think anyone realizes…
I’m more broken than anyone knows… I didn’t even realize it until my talk with Alex today. I have had a string of complete and uder heartbreak… My very first boyfriend cheated on me… After 4 years… 4… Then another guy used me for video games, stole them all and moved. Then a guy goes out with me just to make sure he’s gay. Then a guy goes out with me out of pity, and breaks up with me not even a day later… Then I met the most fantastic woman ever and I mess it up, and crush myself more than I could ever express. Then go out with my best friend, then her best friend. And then he broke my heart multiple times… Is it any surprise that its hard for me to open my heart to anyone? Not to sound proud, but I think I’m pretty sane for someone who has had her heart broken in so sososo many ways, by so many people, so many times…
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The side of me that no one really sees. The part of me that has given up, seen too many things, and been through too many heartbreaks. It'll be a personal, and depressing blog. Follow me at your own will. You'll learn a lot about my personal life.
